June 12, 2025

 Today was decent, not as good as the 11th, but what are you gonna do, you know?

Reddit: Just a few targeted searches. I am finding myself to have a "better relationship" with this site when I'm not constantly checking headlines. 

Instagram:  I forgot that I actually deleted the app. That's why I hadn't been on! Let's keep it going LOL

Youtube: Unfortunately, I was watching this youtuber I kinda like for a bit long in the morning. Just lying on the couch. I finally caught myself and got up to do something a little more productive. Shuffled through a couple shorts as well, but caught myself early enough.

One source of the browsing might be boredom; brain wants dopamine, brain tries to go to "usual suspects," then you spend too much time and feel bad, cycle continues. It's not enough to just not go on the sites, but you have to actually be doing something else to replace it (which I'm thinking should be things you want to do). Enjoying the silence is also nice. Maybe I kind try some meditation during some of these periods. 

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